Judging by my age (20) most would still consider me a NOOB when it comes to life.
And for the most part I agree, but I also believe that age is just a number. You don’t define someone by how long they have been on this earth, but by the experiences they have shared and what they learned from them. My whole life I have been called an old soul, because I sit back and soak in my surroundings. I am curious, yet cautious and it’s been both a Burden and a blessing.
I lost my mother to cancer when I was 15 years old and it changed everything. I slowly started gaining more perspective on the importance and fragility of life. I had been a mute, terrified, nervous, person my whole life and only few knew my warm happy qualities and this was something that made my mom worry. She was crazy scared about me being pushed around and taken advantage of, and you know what, it did happen a lot. So once she passed I decided I didn’t want that for myself, and so I changed. I decided to be myself for all to see, accept and love those who love me and to enjoy the little moments.
There is a difference between “Not giving a fuck” and “being confident in who you are” My golden rules are to be myself, love unconditionally and take things on as they come without hurting the people around me. Some people lose sight on the fact that their decisions affect others and they just dismiss it and say “I don’t give a fuck” well that’s all and good, but you are more than just yourself once you invite others into your life. I don’t know about you but I believe the words of the Beatles “Love is all you need”, And I also believe that cherishing those around you can bring out a stronger love for yourself then you ever imagined. Because once you allow yourself to love and comfort others, you will start to find out what kind of love you deserve.
“In my 20 years of life I have learned one thing..I Deserve the kind of love that needs no words, I deserve to hold all different forms of love, I deserve the chance to teach my future children what unconditional love feels like, I deserve to let love break me, build me up and mold me into a better human being. I deserve the chance to love as many individuals as my heart can hold, to never expect it in return, and to feel that warmth when those few do. I deserve the kind of love that warms my heart so much, even the sun is envious. I deserve these things because if given the chance to give them to everyone I would trade in my own life. To me life is about surrendering to love and finding your purpose within it.”
Peace and love
Chloe Anne Lloyd